Maddox was drawn to Bryan the first time they met…but something was missing.
Best friends, maybe more, they did almost everything together. They had classes together…studied together…hung out together…They were inseparable. But as close as they were, Maddox knew he was missing something about Bryan. Some kind of missing piece that would explain so much. If Bryan wasn’t in the closet, why was he so quiet about his sexuality? If he was out, why didn’t he date?
Why couldn’t he see Maddox as more than just a friend?
Bryan had no idea what to do. As much as he felt for Maddox, he’d never be able to tell him because that would mean letting him in on Bryan’s deepest secret. Maddox is the best but he’d never understand what Bryan needed…how he wanted to be loved. Right now he has Maddox’s friendship and that will have to be enough. If Maddox finds out what Bryan really wants in a relationship, he might lose even that.
Story Contains: M/m Sexual Content, Mild BDSM, Age Play, Mild ABDL
I loved this ‘edgy’ and unconventional, 4.5 star, love story and the two young men who have wordlessly committed to each other as best friends. The author’s presentation included all of the ‘feels’ that one would hope for in satisfying romance and more!
There is a deep relationship between the main characters long before there is any consideration of intimacy. This is primarily a love story, with the romance and intimacy one would expect. The story includes age-play and light BDSM, primarily to accommodate the desires of the humble, shy, introverted, Bryan, to be totally cared for and loved by his potential romantic partner and best friend forever, Maddox. Bryan wants the decisions about intimacy to be made by his partner, his ‘daddy’. He has learned by reading and computer research about the things that excite him but he has no expectation that Maddox, or in fact any partner, will be excited by the same things. His biggest fear is that he will lose the relationship that he has with his very best friend. The ABDL component of Bryan’s desire is well described in the context of his emotional needs.
Maddox and Bryan are best friends at college and Maddox can’t figure out why they aren’t more than friends. They are gay, both out and they are in fact inseparable, sharing classes, studying, eating meals together. Bryan doesn’t date, at all, ever. Maddox knows that there is something about Bryan that is preventing them from having a more intimate, perhaps ‘boyfriend’ loving relationship and he is desperate to understand. Summer vacation brings the opportunity for Maddox to cautiously explore how he can be just what Bryan needs. Although he has no experience with age-play, this sort of intimacy and relationship, he loves Bryan and learning how to love him in the ways that he needs is not at all troubling, in fact, exciting in ways that he never imagined.
Bryan: “I wanted to be good for him, and I wanted him to be the one to give me permission.”
Although this is the first of two parts, the conclusion of part 1 does not leave the reader hanging on a cliff but anticipating the more to come. The highly anticipated part 2 can’t come soon enough for me.